This takes into account the following day after Caleb's passing.
The following day, everything starts to sink in after some time of reflection and deep thought.
We woke up as if nothing has happened from the previous day and we were eager to go home. There was nothing to keep us in hospital. Up until now, i would like to go to hospital but now i've changed my mind. Something the nurse said to us that really changed my perspective of Caleb.
She said Caleb will always be your 3rd child even if you have a 4th 5th or 6th child. And he will be with you for a very long time. It dawned on me that Caleb was my son and will always be my son.
When they brought his tiny body back into the room, i cried as i held him tightly. No matter what happens from now till my death...Caleb will always be my son and i will treasure that.
After Dr Ng came to examine JY, we checked out. We bumped into Peach and Sharon as they were exiting too with their new bub in hand. Brought JY to tears. I knew that would happen and i hoped it wouldn't but the timing and coincidence was there.
We got home and i wondered what has just happened to us. It was so surreal. I thought about heading down to the studios to say goodbyes but my heart wasn't in it and i didn't want to bring down the atmosphere. And i need to keep JY in company as she was taking it hard.
She clutched onto the clothing that Caleb first wore and a teddy bear the hospital gave as the only reminder of Caleb.
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