Results back and tears

Having not heard of the results on Friday, i thought i will enjoy the weekend until Monday when they call back with the results. However, whilst on set filming on Saturday, JY called to say Dr Ng rang her with the positive results for Trisomy 18.  I paused for a second...with relief and then anguish in heart.  After work, i drove back home in tears.  The uncertainty is gone and now its hard work from here onwards.  JY went to the seminar for a break from the kids with mum and aunties looking after the girls.  I went to the wrap party as scheduled and had lots of time to think and pray whilst driving down to the GC.  

JY didn't take it hard...we knew all along for the last 8 months.  This just confirms it.

Today, before church...we prayed as scheduled.  JY said its not just about healing, its about God's will for Caleb and the purpose of these things happening to us. She spoke with wisdom.  Jesus died a slow and painful death so that our sins our forgiven and we may have eternal life.  The same with the pain JY is going through, we hope that the emotional and physical pain is not in vain.  And its not about Caleb....God is using someone close to us to reach out and deep into our lives...to change us...change me.  

The good news being....God is interested in my life and wants to change it through these trying circumstances.

Amniotest done..

The amniotest was conducted today at the Mater.  Finally, we can once and for all know what is coming to us.  The initial ultrasound scan for Caleb for his wellbeing wasn't encouraging.  In fact, it went backwards.  Dr Thomas said Caleb's growth has slowed whilst the fluid in JY's tummy has increased.  The swelling in her feet and hands are getting worse as its painful for JY to walk and also sleep at night.  The swelling is worse at night during sleep.  On Wednesday, Dr Ng prescribed her blood pressure medication to reduce the high blood pressure.  

We should get a result of the test by tomorrow and then the doctors will consult with each other on how to manage Caleb's birth.  My concern now is with JY's health and wellbeing.  I don't know what she is going through...with the enlarge tummy and swollen hand and feet but if there is someone who can take it...it would be JY.  She has the physical strength to take on this burden but she needs emotional and spiritual encouragement and nourishment.

Before we went to the Mater, we talked and prayed at mum's house.  JY was living by the moment with Caleb not expecting healing but readiness to accept if Caleb is taken away.  But I told her we must believe in faith for healing. For without faith, God cannot do His work.  It says so in the Bible.  So we agreed to both having the same goals and level of faith- our first goal...then secondly we are prepared for God's will for Caleb be revealed whether he lives or dies.  Tonight, i even thought about God releasing Caleb to spare JY the pain and suffering but i repented afterwards.  I want both of them to come through this.

TO be honest, we weren't working together as a couple in prayer and goals.  I think God is moulding us to work and pray together with the same level of faithfulness.  Last Sunday during the sermon, the topic of synergy was preached which struck accord with us.  JY wasn't happy on Sunday morning that i went for a ride without telling her and she was left to look after the girls.  It also happened on Saturday when i went to the gym and left JY to look after the girls.  She wanted an equal share of the family workload.

Judgement day is ever getting closer....the ordeal is nearly at its end.  I'm contemplating leaving work to look after JY since we are not doing ANYTHING at the moment.  I'm always thinking of doing something productive whilst i wait.  There is a purpose in all this......only time will reveal all.